In this generation, it is easy to figure out how to be a mother. Just find someone that will have sex with you unprotected and bam, your a mother. 9 months later you give birth to a human being you had a hand in creating. It is once you have that child where you have to ask yourself the question of what type of mother you want to be.
I have been blessed because all of my friends seem to have children. It's through watching them that I have learned how I want to raise my children. I have one friend who raises their children through fear. Her daughter is completely terrified of her. She threatens her. Tears her down emotionally. And the daughter takes it and says nothing. However when I try to joke around with said child, the child doesn't know how to take the joke. She gets offended. I don't want my child to be like that. I don't want my child raised like that. This daughter is afraid to ask her mom to download a game on her iPhone. So sad. I also don't want to be the mom to pawn off my child either. I know one mom who hands her child off so much the child isn't freaked out when a stranger holds them. This is the same child that never gets a bath and is always in dirty clothes. I don't want to be the mom with a child that acts spoiled either. Another little girl I know just starts crying when she doesn't get her way because if she cries enough, mommy and daddy will give her want she wants. This is the same toddler who has an iPad mini and watches tv all the time while we are in public.
I want my children to be raised with the same morals I was. I didn't have all of that growing up. I had Barbies. And dollies. And watched Power Rangers on Saturday mornings. I think I'm getting closer to the thought of being a mom. I think I'm going to make mistakes. I think I'm not going to get it right all the time. But I think at the em of the day my child will know who loves them.
